so, wherever you are... {and that ol' recipe box}

                                                                      


Where are you, today?  In life?
I'm sitting at my decidedly modern living room table {a bit too plain for my taste, but It works and is huge, which I find useful} and typing on my computer.  I watch my daughters playing, by the stairs.  Kensington is pretending she is a nurse and Frankie has on a too-small shirt and no pants.  She has learned to strip herself of clothing, socks and hair ties.  They are taping band aids on a box.
And after this, they'll go downstairs and dump out all of the toys on the ground and argue over who gets the purple horse and I'll break up four pulling matches before 10am.  And then I'll fold napkins and curl my hair and maybe sing a few songs.  I'll make three lunches and wait for the mailman and water plants.  I'll chat on the phone with a girlfriend and wait for Sean to come home. The girls will have a Popsicle on the steps and I'll wave at neighbors. The girls will ride cars on the carpet and we might play chase and I'll wipe up the table 14 more times. I'll go see a friend, this evening and talk about life. I'll finally flop into bed, at the end of the night, tired.

They're happy. He's happy.
They're content and good and playing together, like I had always hoped.
He's fed and smiling and making jokes.

This is where I am, in life.  A home with too many rooms, two daughters, a dog and the dearest of husbands.  Good friends. Good people. Good feeling in my heart. Real faith and fantastic food. Good music playing in the background.
And on most days, it isn't any more extraordinary.

This is where I am and I'm all here.
Well, once I post and close this silver, metal notebook, I'll be all there.
And it's good to be here.
On the days I struggle with being "all there" or feeling like I'm so very small and what I do is so very unimportant {even though everyone will tell you that raising children is the most important thing you can do, I defy any mother to walk through it and not wonder if you are making any bit of difference, once in awhile}, I remember the quote from Arthur Conan Doyle, "To a great mind, nothing is little".
It's true, don't you know?
What you're doing, if it's what you are supposed to be doing, isn't little.
Do you ever feel it is?  Am I the only one that becomes consumed in the smallness of daily laundry piles and baby talk and dollhouse rearrangement, that I forget the magnitude of what I'm doing?  Please console me and tell me I'm not the only one.
Even when you feel it and even when I feel it.
Our lives are important and what we are doing must be swallowed whole, each day.

So, I'm off to play and then to cook and do some home-school preparations {to say that is to still try and wrap my head around the fact that I'm doing it}.

And wherever you are-be there.  Be all there.
Children or no children, what you are doing is every bit as important as the next person.  If you're working towards the right thing....it really is.
Go forth and do small things!

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Oh, and about that recipe box.
I want to give one to each and every one of you but ..... I can't.

I've come up with a compromise, if you'll allow it.
The recipe box is filled to the brim with recipes and I would like to give the box to the person whose comment resonated with me the most.

Jenni Segar, I understand the "scent reaction" you speak of.  I have those all the time and I believe it's why I burn candles each and every day.  It reminds me of times, people and periods of my life.  I hope, one day, when my daughters are grown, that they will smell a candle and think of "home".  I hope.
Jenni, I would like to send you the recipe box to enjoy so please email me your home address so I can package it up for you.

For the rest of you that loved it so much, I would like to pull one of the recipes out and mail it to you.  I doubt that taking out a few recipes will even make a dent in that exploding box.  If you would like one, please comment and let me know!  Send me your address, for goodness will be on its way to you, shortly.  I love having an excuse to send mail.
Give me one.

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For those of you who are reading Almost Amish with us...where are you?
Are you still reading?
Hello....?
I'm going to start reviewing two chapters each Monday, so we aren't still reading this, come December.  I'd love to hear your thoughts, so do share.

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Image via here.




16 comments:

  1. I. AM. BESIDE. MY. SELF. WITH. EXCITEMENT. Watch for my email soon.

    Thank you friend!

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  2. I love that opening quote. I needed this today. Thanks. I'm still here with the almost Amish book but we have packed and moved and unpacked the past couple of weeks. I haven't read chapter 3 yet. Getting there :)

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    1. You are so welcome and I'm so glad that you stopped in today. Everything works together, just right, doesn't it?

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  4. I used to have that Jim Elliot quote as the subtitle to my blog. Love it.
    Honey, you are SO not alone. The statement you made about getting wrapped up in the smallness of daily tasks completely resonated in me. I often find the days I get discontent are the day that I'm thinking "in the smallness".

    I love that you are homeschooling. We are starting this year too.

    I'm promise to keep up with my Almost Amish from here on out!

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  5. I'm pretty sure I needed to hear/see this today. I have been in the depths of 'where/who am I' and feel as though yes I am making steps towards my goals/following my dreams but they are teeny tiny baby steps and I've had a hard time just being here....right now.
    so thank you for this reminder that all we do is of value and importance. even the smallest of things.

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    1. Yes, my friend....the smallest steps are sometimes the foundation for the larger ones.
      Keep going!

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  6. You are definitely not the only one that becomes consumed by the smallness! On my worst of days, I think to myself that I was so much better at work, clocking 9-5. Then something snaps me out of it...a tiny laugh, dancing feet, singing children, a six year olds excitement when the UPS guy drops off catepillars on front porch, and I know that I would be missing these moments if I was clocking 9-5. Then and there, I set my lofty goals for myself aside because this is exactly where I'm supposed to be right now even when it feels mundane! Thanks for the wonderful post!

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    1. You are right where God has you.
      Remember that!

      ;) and hi!

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  7. So here's what just happened. I was in the kitchen making lunch for the kids and thinking about my blog and how I don't know if I should be doing it because who really cares what I'm doing? What would I write today? I made lunch. Turkey on whole wheat, with a side of grapes. Kids complained about the bread. My hair has been very willful lately. Yesterday at work I put in IV's and emptied urinals and washed my hands 8000 times. Period. Boring. Then I opened my computer to look up an address and your page was on my browser and WHAM! You spoke to my heart. If I am glorifying God, than it's important and good and I'm kind of a jerk to be sitting here thinking that all this that God has given me is boring or uninspiring. Sheesh, woman! Have I told you lately how thankful I am for you?

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    1. I love this! Thank you for sharing your moments leading up to this. God had a plan, most certainly.

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  8. Loved this post. I love the picture you painted of where you are - you have such a way with words. :)

    I am trying to be all here. I confess that I have struggled lately... wanting to be "there" already instead of wading through "here" still. I feel like we've been "here" for so long. But I ran across a family photo today that stopped me in my tracks. It was taken on a family hike in July of 2008, and then I found one from another hike a year later. Seeing my beautiful boy and girl in those pictures, ages 2 and 3 in the first and 3 and 4 in the other hit me hard. I started crying - I miss those little faces!! A thousand memories seemed blurred in those wide little eyes and pudgy grins. And I realized as I struggled to once again let go of "then", that I will desperately miss the big faces that I see and hear "now" all too soon.

    When I pulled Audrey out of her crib, and when I picked up Caleb and Lina from school I made a commitment to stay "here". To cherish "now". It is a goal that I will need to constantly remind myself of, but I hope that I can stick to it. Thank you for the reminder - I might just bookmark this post and read it once a week. ;)

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  9. you're not the only one. i feel like that all the time. ALL.THE.TIME.
    and i don't have children.

    being present, in the moment, fully aware, is something i've been working on doing and realizing that i'm not very successful at it. at least i'm trying, right? because i remember a time when i didn't even realize that i wasn't living in the moment. ever.

    even though i'm not where i hope to be, i'm closer to it now than i was before.
    xo,
    a

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  10. Congrats to Jenni on the recipe box.. it is a beauty!

    Just the past few months..i have been focusing on being in the "now" ..after reading One Thousand Gifts..it made me realize even more those little moments mean so much!

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  11. Oh yes, indeed! I frequently get lost in the daily grind of dishes, laundry, and homework. I forget that there is a bigger picture than what I see everyday. I love being a mom, maybe not always the parts I play in that role, but overall, it is the best thing I can be doing. Sometimes, I just need a reminder. Thanks for that today!!

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